Today's Reminders: Asma and Death

Assalaamualaikum Warahmutallahi Wabarakatuh,

So today as I was walking on the masjid's parking lot to go inside for the Salat-ul-Jummah, I saw a hearse (those cars owned by the funeral home to carry the deceased to the cemetery) parked backwards. I looked on the side of it and it said, Brust Funeral Home.

All of a sudden, it reminded me of Asma because thats where we gave Asma ghusl. They are also the ones who transported her from the masjid to the cemetery.

Anyways, after the Jummah, everyone came outside for Salat-ul-Janazah. Alhamdulillah almost everyone who was there for Jummah stayed for Salat-ul-Janazah as well.

Afterwards they took the deceased to the cemetery. Turns out, they were all going to bury him at the cemetery where Asma is. In fact, it was about two graves away from Asma's.

Subhana'Allah, the time from Salat-ul-Janazah till the time we buried him, it brought back all the memories of February 12th, 2005.

Everything from giving Asma a ghusl to Salat-ul-Janazah to the funeral procession to her burial, it all came back to me. :'(

In the end, it just reminded me of death is around the corner. More and more I have been thinking about death and how it can come any second. It can come right now as Im typing this. So scary when you think about it because Im not ready to die.

When he was getting buried, I was just standing there thinking that what if its me why was being buried. The deceased isnt coming back. If I die now, its over and I will be dealt with according to my deeds. Scary...

I started to think about how Asma would be right now and how peaceful she would be right now. I started to think how I wish I can be like that when I die. I want to free of any fitnah of the grave and just be in peace.

Then I realized that it wont just come to me. I have to work for it. If I really want to be from the fitnah of the grave and if I want to be reunited with Asma, then I really have to be a better Muslim and try to do what we are commaned to do by Allah Subhanawata'ala and our beloved Nabi Sallallahu Alayhi Wasalam.

If I really want to avoid Allah's wrath, I must prepare for it. I cant just hope without doing anything about it.

Today was another reminder for me. It not only reminded me of Asma and the day she was buried, but I was also reminded of how near death is and how ready I am. Subhana'Allah...

May Allah forgive the sins of the deceased that was buried today and save him from the fitnah of the grave and akhirah. Ameen
May Allah give the deceased's wife, kids and rest of the family, sabr and shiffa. Ameen
May Allah forgive us all, guide us and keep us on the straight path. Ameen
May Allah make us better Muslims and take us as believers. Ameen
May Allah reunite us with Asma. Ameen

Assalaamualaikum Warahmutallahi Wabarakatuh.