This blog is all about my little sister, Asma, who lost her life in the battle against cancer on February 11, 2005 at the age of 12.

All About My Baby Sister, Asma

Feel free to pass this blog along to others, Insha'Allah. (To read the very first post/entry, click on "February 2005" under "Archives" and scroll all the way to the bottom and you should see the first entry). Please keep my parents and family in your dua'as. Jazak'Allah. May Allah reward all of you and keep you guys on the straight path. Ameen May Allah reunite us with Asma once again. Ameen

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

"What if I die now? Am I ready?"

Assalaamualaikum Warahmutallahi Wabarakatuh,

I havent updated this for a long time because I have been busy with things at home and school.

However, I will update this more often.

Im sitting to Quran by Saleh At-Talib (hes the young #3 guy who recites at the Haram). Masha'Allah, beautiful voice and recitation.

Anyways, listening to his recitation reminds of the time in Saudi and when I did Hajj. One of the things I remember is that how I kept thinking of Asma whenever I would make dua'a or do tawaaf around the Ka'ba. Subhana'Allah wherever I would go or whatever I would do, Asma wouldnt leave my mind.

Anyways, lately I have been doing a lot of "soul searching" and realizing where I am and where I stand. Talking with my best friend to attending Aqeeda classes to listening to Quran, they all made me ponder about how life is so temporary.

That scares me. We are here for a little bit. We have (either Heaven or Hell) ahead of us. What if I end up in Hell?

I see that Im always thinking of Asma and how much I miss her. I wish and pray that I can be united with her once again in Jannah.

However, truth is, Asma is gone and shes preserved now. Insha'Allah she is/was sinless since she left this dunya while pure and innocent. She was a little girl.

However, unlike her, I am older and have made many mistakes and committed many sins. If I die, am I ready to face my Rabb? Am I ready to face the questioning in the grave? Wallah it scares me.

Asma always used to tell me let go of bad habits and become a better person. She would advise me. Subhana'Allah, she kept me from doing bad things.

Asma's death has taught me a lot. Many times I find myself slipping away and going astray again. However, constant reminders bring me back to track. I feel like I have wasted so much time. I cant waste any more time.

I dont know if I am making any sense. I dont know if any of this makes sense to you guys.

All Im trying to say is that we need check ourselves and see where we stand. I first and foremost say to myself that I need to change for the better.

Lets stop to think for a minute and ask ourselves if we are ready to die. If not, what are we doing about it?

I get emails often from people who read this blog and tell me how they either went through similar experiences as me or how this blog has reminded them of death and how they are going to change.

I just got an email from a sister who read my blog with her friend and I guess it "hit" them especially because of personal, similar experience as mine.

Subhana'Allah, that in itself is one of the reasons why I created this blog. I wanted to remind people of death and how short our life is. Of course, I remind myself before anyone else.

What if I die now? Am I ready?

May Allah forgive me and guide me to the straight path. Ameen
May Allah forgive us all and guide us to the straight path. Ameen
May Allah open up our hearts and lead us to the truth. Ameen
May Allah take us as Believers. Ameen
May Allah protect us from evil and harm. Ameen
May Allah give shiffa to the ones who are ill and give them sabr. Ameen
May Allah grant a spacious grave to the deceased and the prevent them from the fitnah of the grave and akhirah. Ameen


Assalaamualaikum Warahmutallahi Wabarakatuh.

10 Comments:

  • At Thursday, June 01, 2006 7:46:00 PM, Anonymous maria said…

    salaam
    i was waiting for you to update this blog. Its true whenver i read this blog it reminds me of death even more...its so scary...everytime I ask myself if am ready to face Allah, i feel that i have done nothing whatsoever in this life to make Him happy...its scary...whenever i go to sleep i fear if im gonna wake up the next morning..i have soooooo many things to change about myself and the things i do...May Allah guide us all to the right path. Ameen n Ameen to all your duas.

     
  • At Friday, June 02, 2006 12:23:00 AM, Blogger AllAboutAsma said…

    Maria,

    You should emailed me or something and tell me to update it. lol

    Anyways, one of the reasons why I made this blog is to make people realize that death is near.

    Alhamdulillah you think like that.

    The fact that you think like that is a good thing.

    May Allah keep you on the straight path and forgive you of your sins. Ameen

     
  • At Sunday, June 04, 2006 4:21:00 AM, Anonymous Secret said…

    Subhan Allah, this blog used to affect me soo much. I would always weep reading about Asma, but subhan Allah, after seeing your other side on your other blog your words mean NOTHING.. I did try though, but nope - nothing. Dont get me wrong, indeed Asma was a great girl, mashAllah. You're the one who disgusts me.

     
  • At Sunday, June 04, 2006 1:12:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    "secret" you need to Fear Allaah, whatever "other side" you have seen it still DON'T give u a right to belittle the bros words which came from his heart...

     
  • At Sunday, June 04, 2006 1:18:00 PM, Blogger AllAboutAsma said…

    Funny how Im considered a bad person for supporting the Mujahideen and their actions.

    Interesting.

     
  • At Sunday, June 04, 2006 1:55:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    I think of it this way, yes, we all have our "other sides",but that is what makes us human. Secret, you ant perfect and i am sure you make tons of mistakes just like all of us. Whatever you beef you have with the bro doesn't effect his posts. Clearly he writes from the heart.

    I for one, love this site, support it, and use it as a source of inspiration. Brother, keep up the great work!

    Reading this post has really got me thinking. Subhan'Allah, you are right, what if it is us next, what have we done (rather, what have I done)? Jazaks, and hey, forgive me for all i've done. that goes for everyone, even if you don't know me:)

    all and all, great blog, super benefical.
    taz

     
  • At Sunday, June 04, 2006 3:57:00 PM, Anonymous Secret said…

    Omar, whos talking about the Mujahideen? Im talkin about all the hate against shias. Subhan Allah, you're what, 22? But still act like a 4 year old. All these people wrote long messages to make you realize, but still. And no, Im not shia, and yes, I do believe that a shia becomes kaafir if he/she says that hazrat Aisha isnt innocent and etc, but that doesnt give me the right to harass them. Omar, I do believe that your grounds are fair enough, but bro, seriously, is it really neccesary to mock them? Cuz this way people like me wont take your words serious anymore. True that I myself just said that you disgust me, I just wanted to make my point clear, and now I'd like to apologize..

    Omar, this blog used to make me weep for hours. I remember how my face would be all sticky afterwards because of all the tears, but then I saw how you'd rather be updating on the other blog and so on.

    Listen, people all around the world visit this blog daily. Why not take advantage of all this fame, your writing skills, and all the knowledge you've got about shias? - What do you say?

     
  • At Sunday, June 04, 2006 4:36:00 PM, Blogger AllAboutAsma said…

    Secret,

    I see what you are saying and agree with most of what you are saying.

    If you notice on my other blog, I am starting to keep from posting things that wont do us any good.

    I just mock the Shias and the haters of Islam because they deserve it. How can I live and not do anything when I see and hear people say such stuff about Aisha (R) or the Companions?

    With that being said, I agree that I could be doing something productive with my time and energy rather mocking various groups since that wont do much.

    For a while, I have been contemplating whether or not I should shut down my GQ blog. Im definately going to keep this one for many reasons. One of the reasons is that people have personally told me they have benefitted from this site.

    If I do keep my GQ blog, I'm going to post things that will help us worship Allah in a better way.

    Plus, I love this blog. I dont update it as much because when I type the posts on here, I give it all I have and give people a chance to reflect upon it.

    I agree with what you have said. Jazak'Allahu khairan for the naseeha.

    I just wish you have said it in a better way or through e-mail.

    May Allah reward you and keep you on the straight path. Ameen

    Assalaamualaikum Warahmutallahi Wabarakatuh.

     
  • At Sunday, June 04, 2006 4:41:00 PM, Blogger AllAboutAsma said…

    Oh by the way, Im 24. lol

     
  • At Wednesday, June 07, 2006 5:50:00 AM, Blogger Zahera said…

    Indeed it is very true; have we doet enough to face Allah when it is our time to depart this duniya? Unfortunately i think the answer is "no." Everyday of my life i sin (maybe even without realising, but maybe i should pay more attention and take more care), its hard- ever feel like you know something id farz on you yet we make stupid/lame excuses to justify ourselves! Oh and we dont just do this once, we carry on doing it! :-/
    Nice to have an update on your block Omar, its been a while since i last read up :-)
    SubhanAllah can i also congratulate on your blog not only benefitting people in the way you know thus far BUT also helping people in the UK without you even realising.
    Im sure i have told you about my nephew Ibby and how we hold clinics to help other famillies? Well guess what? lol. SubhanAllah a sister called Hajra read my posts on this blog and had look at the link i had provided and attended one of our clinics held just a few weeks ago!Who knows, she may even be a match and help save someone's life, and all this because of this blog? :-) Alhamdullilah, its all so wonderful and bought a big smile to my face when she explained how she came across the clinic. So thanks Omar, in our memories of our loved ones like Ibby and Asma- we inshAllah give others the hope to live and others the hope to come and try save a life.

    Ameen to your duas, may Allah (swt) guide us all to the right path. Ameen.

     

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