Reminder: Death

Assalaamualaikum Warahmutallahi Wabarakatuh,

So today after my dad and I got some groceries, we went to visit Asma.

Subhana'Allah everytime I go there, it brings back memories of the day when we buried her. Everything from her ghusl to her Janazah to the procession to the moment she was getting buried.

It was so sad and heartbreaking. Even now I cant really believe it that she is gone. World feels so empty. Wierd. Tasteless. Lost interest in the dunya (I guess thats a good thing).

There is a new grave by Asma's grave. Its the third grave in the Muslim section. Asma was the second one there.

My dad and I both got out and stood by her grave. We quietly made dua'a and left after a few minutes.

Its such a sad thing. Its sad when you think about her and start missing her. Its sad when you think of the memories and her laughter and her sweet voice.

Its also scary. Its scary when you think about you we too will end up in that place. It can be in 10 years, 10 months, 10 weeks, 10 days, 10 hours, or 10 seconds...you never know. However each day, you are one day closer. Subhana'Allah.

Visiting her grave is a constant reminder. It hits harder not only because she was my baby sister, but also because I saw her pass away literally right in front of my eyes.

Death is near. Are we ready for it?

Asma was an amazing little girl. Subhana'Allah we were blessed to have her in our lives even if it was for a short time.

I learned a lot from her. I still learn from her whenever I think of/about her.

Whenever I go to her grave, I think about what she would be doing. I think if she would know Im there and if she can hear her. I think what would her reaction be when I visit her.

Shes preserved now. She has left this world while still a little kid.

Im 24 and counting...

Im not a sinless person. If I die now, what will happen to me?

Scary. Very scary to think about it...

I hope I die a Muslim...

May Allah elevate Asma's level in Jannah to the highest. Ameen
May Allah reunite us with Asma in the Akirah. Ameen
May Allah forgive us all and guide us all. Ameen
May Allah take us from this life while we are Muslims. Ameen
May Allah grant a spacious grave and save the people who passed away, from the fitnah of the grave and Akirah. Ameen
May Allah give my parents and family sabr and shiffa. Ameen
May Allah reunite all the Muslims together in the Akirah. Ameen

Assalaamualaikum Warahmutallahi Wabarakatuh.