This blog is all about my little sister, Asma, who lost her life in the battle against cancer on February 11, 2005 at the age of 12.

All About My Baby Sister, Asma

Feel free to pass this blog along to others, Insha'Allah. (To read the very first post/entry, click on "February 2005" under "Archives" and scroll all the way to the bottom and you should see the first entry). Please keep my parents and family in your dua'as. Jazak'Allah. May Allah reward all of you and keep you guys on the straight path. Ameen May Allah reunite us with Asma once again. Ameen

Thursday, March 30, 2006

My Random Thoughts

Assalaamualaikum Warahmutallahi Wabarakatuh,

So today I got a phone call from Brian whom we met while we were in Mexico for Asma's treatment.

Subhana'Allah it brought back so many memories. I felt like crying while on the phone. Plus my mom was there so I just held it in.

Wallah all the memories were coming back to me. Everything from morning time till night time, everything was in my mind again.

I miss her pretty smile on her glowing face, sweet giggles, funny laughs, witty comments and her the warmth she used to give out.

People became very close to Asma. They used to look at Asma for courage and strength. Im not even exaggerating. They would turn to Asma and tell her how much she has helped them during trying times.

They would tell Asma that they were ashamed of themselves because they had given up where Asma who was 12 years old, had given all that she had.

Even on the phone Brian remembered that Asma put up a good fight against cancer. They knew about Asma and how she had patience, courage and how she resilient she was. Subhana'Allah.

They loved her so much that Brian and Sherry got Asma presents out of nowhere. Also, Brian's mother in law (Sherry's mother) made a blanket, gloves, winter cap and muffler for Asma. Asma used them even during her last days.

Asma was one who had captured many hearts all around the world. Even if they met only once, people would call back and write to her asking about her.

I cant even look at her pictures let alone watch her videos. It makes me cry if I stumble upon her pictures. Her movies are somewhere collecting dust. I have no intention of watching them either. Maybe I will never watch them. I will just give them to my wife and kids Insha'Allah to watch one day so they know who she was. I dont know.

I've been having flashbacks of Asma more than ever. I dont know why. Sometimes those flashbacks are more like nightmares. I wake up worried and sometimes crying. There are times I cry in my sleep.

I dont want to mention those nightmares/flashbacks. When Im actually having them, its like its happening all over again. So scary.

Man whenever I think about the stuff she has gone through, I still cant even imagine how she did it. I mean how? How is it even possible for a little girl like her to go through what she went through.

No one can even imagine. Even if I tried to describe the images, no one still will ever be able to picture it and realize what she went through.

Hell, even I cant and I was there to witness the pain and suffering that she endured.

Maybe one day I will describe her experiences, but right now, I dont think I can.

Im going to post up pictures of her room, toys, clothes, and even her medicine cabinet that is still there, Insha'Allah. Everything is still there. Most of the stuff is untouched. Even her shoe is still there ever since she last wore it. Its been almost 14 months and no one even tried to move it. I dont think they will either.

God I miss her...

Hmm well Im going to end this here.

May Allah elevate her status in Jannah to the highest. Ameen
May Allah reunite us with her once again. Ameen
May Allah forgive us all and keep us on the straight path. Ameen
May Allah give my parents shiffa and sabr. Ameen
May Allah give my family shiffa and sabr. Ameen
May Allah reward all the parents who have lost child(ren) and grant them Jannah. Ameen

Assalaamualaikum Warahmutallahi Wabarakatuh.


  • At Thursday, March 30, 2006 11:03:00 PM, Anonymous saimah said…


    Ameen to the duas. I'm not surprised Asma touched so many hearts she seemed like a little angel. Whose Brian by the way? Who ever he is it was nice of his mother in law to make Asma those things. Don't worry about your nightmares and don't worry about Asma she is in a good place and is being take care of. Stay strong. Looking forward to the pictures. Take care.

  • At Friday, March 31, 2006 12:46:00 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    sometimes crying keep it all bottled up for those nightmares...u should always ...ALWAYS read Quran befor going to sleep.....then maybe...just maybe ull be able to see asma, in a positive way ....her swimming in the flowers of jannah
    all is for the best
    take care
    ma'a salama

  • At Friday, March 31, 2006 8:00:00 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Photos are haram arent they?

  • At Friday, March 31, 2006 8:02:00 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Of people ofcourse..

  • At Friday, March 31, 2006 10:53:00 AM, Anonymous saimah said…

    I dont think photos are haram but drawing pictures of people is. However I think its haram to display photos of people throughout the house (Is that correct, anyone?)

  • At Saturday, April 01, 2006 1:03:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    yes ...because the angels wont enter ur home if u hav any pictures posted on the walls (of ppl and living breathing creatures) .... as for drawing living things (so haram)....but i dont think taking pictures of ppl is haram coz ppl take pics of sheikhs ALL the time ....

  • At Saturday, April 01, 2006 2:18:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    It is haram, and Angels dont enter houses with pictures in them, the hadith doesnt say anything about 'only if they are on walls'...

    It was narrated from Abu Sa’eed al-Khudri (may Allaah have mercy on him) that the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said:

    “The angels do not enter a house in which there are statues or images.”

    Narrated by Imam Ahmad; Saheeh al-Jaami’, 1961. 

    Anyhow the confusing factor here is, MR GQ posts allot of fatwas from Islam Q&A, he seems to take allot from that site & every fatwa on Islam Q&A regarding taking photos states that taking photos for 'memories' is absoloutly haram. On his other blog he talks allot about 'following the sunnah, dont commit haram, haram this, haram that'..So why keep photos of Asma then?

    Here are some fatwas: From Islam Q & A:

    Question #10668: Taking pictures for memories - Is it haram?

    Question #22660: Is it haraam to take a picture of a man with his friends?.

    Question #10897: She wants to hang up her graduation photo in the room where men sit

    Question #365: Ruling on photographs

    InshaAllah that helps.

  • At Saturday, April 01, 2006 7:51:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    so ur tellin me that taking pictures of ppl is totally haram ??? omg ...then y is it that ppl take pics of sheikhs...really big the the sheikhs from mecca...u can find their pics on google wen u type in their names... y is it ok for them and not for us??

  • At Sunday, April 02, 2006 10:20:00 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    there is a difference of opinion on this some say its ok others say it isnt, depends which view the shaykh holds to.

    if a shaykh specifically said that pictures were haram and then got people to take pictures of him then you could ask why its ok for them to take picts and not us, but not knowing which view the shaykh holds it doesnt make sense to ask that question.

    also.. the shaykhs cant control who takes pictures of them can they?

  • At Sunday, April 02, 2006 2:49:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    so ur tellin me that taking pictures of ppl is totally haram ???

    I am not telling anyone its haram, the scholars say its haram, have a read of the fatwas.

  • At Monday, April 03, 2006 12:33:00 PM, Anonymous Farhan said…

    As-saalmu `alaykum

    Ameen to all the ad'iya.

  • At Wednesday, April 05, 2006 7:01:00 PM, Blogger Nuralhuda said…

    Assalamu alaikum,

    to clear the matter, some scholars have said that although painting pictures is haram., photographs arents. making pictures is forbidden by some because you can't bring images to life. Photographs on the other hand are just images taken of something living, they just capture the image, just as a mirror reflects. and mirrors arent haram [and infact, muslim men are advised to carry one to groom themselves] , so why should photos be?

    if you dont agree, or wish to take the view of Islam QA, to you your opinion, to me mine. We are brothers and sisters so lets not fight iA :)

    May Allah grant Asma the highest level of jannah and grant her family sabr. - Fasabrun Jameel, wallahu Al Musta'an.

  • At Wednesday, April 05, 2006 8:01:00 PM, Blogger AllAboutAsma said…


    Actually I have heard the same, Nuralhuda.

  • At Thursday, April 06, 2006 11:16:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    assalamu alaikum,

    although i have never agreed with your aggressive tactics and judgemental posts, being a fellow muslim, and another human being, i can see that your sister means so much to you and i would like to extend my deepest sympathies towards you and your family, and pray that Allah continues to shower His Infinite Mercy upon you and your family in this hard time. i cannot imagine how it is to be in your situation.

    a lady from toronto

  • At Saturday, April 08, 2006 5:30:00 PM, Blogger Nuralhuda said…

    You should update here more often. :(

  • At Wednesday, April 12, 2006 2:53:00 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Nuralhuda that is the minority view though isnt it?

    Im still wondering why Mr GQ always quotes from Islam Q & A..always posts fatwas from them, but when it comes to Asma, then its ok to disregard what they say & follow the minority opinion..?


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