May this reach you all in the best of health and Emaan. Ameen
So just a couple of hours ago, I was speaking to some cool people and the topic of death came up. Of course, Asma came up as well. So, the time with them and the discussion of death and Asma inpsired me to post today - Alhamdulillah.
Just because some time may go by before I update this blog, doesn't mean I have forgotten about her. I think about her every day and night. I just get caught up in things and have to take care of them which takes up a lot of my time.
We were discussing death and how it should be a reminder to all of us. I can post about that, but honestly it is something we've all heard before and it is all over the net. So, I will speak about something that reminded me of Asma, Insha'Allah.
As I may have mentioned before, we are fixing up our home and changing things around. I have started to put Asma's belongings in a box to store away. I'm never going to throw them away. If anything, I will box them up and store them somewhere. Most of them are her clothes and her physical therapy equipment such as her knee/leg braces and her prosthetic leg. I'm keeping all that too. Never going to throw it away, Insha'Allah.
There are things that we have moved downstairs into the basement. We put a cabinet downstairs where Asma's belongings are being stored. Last night, thats what my brother and I helped my mother with. We set her things (in the cabinet) such as the arts and crafts that she made when in school or at the hospital. (No. It is not a shrine.)
Then there are many things that we are giving away/donating. Things that were hers, but never used because of her illness. Throughout her illness, she had gotten many gifts from people. However, due to her illness, she was never able to use them. Some of the stuff is still in its plastic wrapper straight out of the factory. What are we going to do with those? There is not much room either for everything.
So basically, if she used it, we keep. If she did not use it, we give it away.
If my cousins come over, my mom will give them something that belonged to Asma. I guess it is a good feeling knowing that you've made someone happy with something that was given to Asma. What good will it do collecting dust?
One of the things my mother is planning to give away is Asma's wheelchair that was custom built for her. I'm going to take a pic of it actually, Insha'Allah. She wants to give it to Masjid al-Haram so people there can use it, Insha'Allah.
Whenever I come across Asma's belongings (like yesterday), I will pause momentarily and just think about each thing and how Asma used it/played with it and the history behind that thing. It is sad. Special memories behind the smallest of the things. This is why when I stop to think about it, I don't think for long. I quickly put it away and move on to the next thing.
Maybe I make it harder than it really is. I don't know. Whatever it is, I don't plan on changing it.
Before I go end this post, I'd like to post another pic of Asma, Insha'Allah. This was taken after her amputation. It was actually at a sister-only event (I believe it was the Mehndhi - night before the wedding) hosted by my (other) sister's friend. My mom loves this picture. I do too.
If you compare it from her pics before she became ill, you can see a difference. But this picture doesn't do any justice. She was looking beautiful, Masha'Allah - even with all the treatments and pain her body was going through at the time.Picture 1Picture 2
I absolutely miss her - without a doubt. :'(May Allah elevate Asma's status in Jannah to the highest. Ameen
May Allah reunite my family and I with Asma once again. Ameen
May Allah forgive us all and guide us to the straight path and keep us firm upon it. Ameen
May Allah give my parents and my family complete sabr and shiffa. Ameen