Thanking Allah...

Assalaamualaikum Warahmutallahi Wabarakatuh,

Its been almost 13 months since Asma passed away. I look back and think how the time went by so fast. It feels like yesterday when she passed away.

I sit and reflect on the things we, as a family, went through. Words cant even begin to describe it. The ear piercing screams that woke up the hospital floor to the traumatic events are left engraved in my mind.

I never really posted anything about her physical condition. I never really posted about what her wounds looked like nor did I post about how on a few occasions she was losing blood as if she had blood gushing out from a fountain...literally.

Many of you guys dont know that part of her and our life. There were family members that didnt even have the stomach to see her wounds. The odor of dried blood was something we got used to. The sight of her leg with a big hole with pieces of dead skin hanging over it wasnt something anyone could see. Not only that, you could see her tumor inside of her leg because the skin was gone and the insides of her leg were visible. Imagine what she went through.

Her whole back started to peel. You could see the fat that was underneath the skin because she became paralyzed and couldnt get off her back which kept oxygen from circulatng.

This is just a glimpse of what happened. This is nothing. If I ever told any of you guys the things Asma went through and what I saw, you would be left in tears.

Subhana'Allah, like I said, words cant describe it.

Despite all that, Asma always was thankful to Allah Subhanawatalaa for giving her other leg and giving her the ability to eat, sleep, see and hear.

How often do we take these things for granted? Wallahi Asma NEVER EVER complained. Yet, here I complain about petty little things. I used to get mad when people went around spreading rumors about me both online and real life. However, now I just think whats the point? Even if I do get down, I think of how I will be rewarded. I think how a little girl did it. That puts me to shame.

If she could, she would come dragging herself in the other room with one leg so she can pray with us in Jamaat. Allahu Akbar!

Lets stop and take a minute to think how much we take for granted? How often do thank Allah for everything? How hard do we try to please Allah despite the difficulties?

Subhana'Allah I feel like Im failing right now... :(

May Allah grant Asma the highest level in Jannah. Ameen
May Allah reunite us with Asma once gain in the hereafter. Ameen
May Allah give my parents and family sabr. Ameen
May we be thankful to Allah for everything. Ameen
May Allah open up our hearts and clear them of evil and harm. Ameen
May Allah forgive us and keep us on the straigth path. Ameen

Assalaamualaikum Warahmutallahi Wabarakatuh.