One of the Most Heartbreaking Things Ever

Assalaamualaikum,

There have been many things that Asma has said and done that truly broke my heart. Wallahi, it has. Of course, Asma used to say and do things out of pure innocence. Actually, thats what made it worse. The fact that she said it out of innocence made it even worse.

I dont know where to start, but I still remember one of the most heartbreaking things that she ever said. Subhana'Allah, I felt like my world had crashed.

It was a while after she had gotten her leg amputated when this took place. Keep in mind, Asma was a very calm person. It took a lot for her to lose her patience.

She always thanked Allah even when calamity fell on her.

She always remembered Allah Subhana'Watalaa.

She always spoke nothing but the truth. She NEVER EVER lied. Never. Yes, really.

Anyways, one day, either to my mom or my sister, she said, "Nobody is going to marry me because of my leg [is gone]."

Subhana'Allah...

What do you say?

What can you say?

I was in shock. My heart was shedding tears. It was broken in half. I couldnt believe she said that.

She didnt even say it to make people feel pity for her. She wasnt that kind of person whatsoever. She didnt care. She didnt give a damn what others thought of her.

However, she said only to speak her mind. She said it because she knew no one would marry her since her leg was amputated. Imagine what she felt like?

Everyday, while sitting in her bed, she would peek out the window when her school bus came at her stop.

Everytime guests came over, while sitting in her bed, she would smile as she watched the kids run around happily.

She used to tell my father not to feel depressed (about her getting her leg amputated) because she can still hop one leg. Allahu Akbar! Look at this little girl's faith and courage. Wow.

She used to me that she didnt care what other people thought of her. She didnt care if other people saw that she didnt have her leg anymore.

When she first got her leg amputated, we would always put a blanket or shawl over her lower body whenever she would sit in bed or her wheelchair...basically everywhere she went outside of home.

Out of nowhere, she said I dont want the blanket.

"Mujey blanket nahi oornah" ("I dont want the blanket."), said Asma.

I said, "Leikin loogh thumko dekengay" ("But people will look at you").

Asma said, "Hehe Tho? I dont care" ("Hehe So? I dont care").

I was just in awe. I mean look at her courage and confidence. I was sad, however, because of what she was going through.

Simply put, it broke my heart.

May Allah grant Asma the highest level of Jannah. Ameen
May Allah reunite us with Asma again. Ameen.

Assalaamualaikum.