This blog is all about my little sister, Asma, who lost her life in the battle against cancer on February 11, 2005 at the age of 12.

All About My Baby Sister, Asma

Feel free to pass this blog along to others, Insha'Allah. (To read the very first post/entry, click on "February 2005" under "Archives" and scroll all the way to the bottom and you should see the first entry). Please keep my parents and family in your dua'as. Jazak'Allah. May Allah reward all of you and keep you guys on the straight path. Ameen May Allah reunite us with Asma once again. Ameen

Saturday, December 16, 2006

I Wish She Was Here

Assalaamualaikum Warahmutallahi Wabarakatuh,

I wish Asma was here. I miss her a lot. I miss her so much. Whenever I was down, she was always there to talk and listen. Just being in her presence made me feel much better.

I feel so out of it right now. I feel alone. I feel sad. I feel pissed. I feel angry. I dont know how else to put it. Its wierd.

I wish she was here though. I wish I can talk to her and feel better. She understood me. She understood where I was coming from. She understood what I was trying to say.

I miss her so much. I love her so much.

I wish she was here...

May Allah reunite us with her once again. Ameen

Assalaamualaikum Warahmutallahi Wabarakatuh.


  • At Saturday, December 16, 2006 8:27:00 AM, Anonymous shaheeda said…

    salaams yaa akhee

    your love and relationship with Asma was something really unique and special and something no one should expect you to forget for truly we do not forget those we carry in our hearts with overflowing love

    know yaa akhee that Asma would not have liked to see you like this, she would want your happiness and im sure due to her conviction in Allah she would have advised you to not feel the way you do and to trust Allah and turn to Him jalla jalaaluh

    no matter how weighed down by dunya and all our affairs and troubles we may be, know that Allah jalla jalaaluh is always there, if you need someone to talk to, to listen to understand, to complain to, to help you, to guide you, to support you, know that there is none better than Allah 'azza wa jall for He is All Knowing All Hearing Most Gracious Most Merciful so extend your hand out and supplicate to Him

    may Allah make it easy on you yaa akhee and help you through whatever you are going through ameen thumma ameen

  • At Saturday, December 16, 2006 2:29:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Assalamo aleikum wa rahmatuAllahi wa barakatuhu,

    My brother in Islam, take comfort in the verses of the Quran when Allah (swt) says:

    "Do people think that they will be left alone because they say: "We believe," and will not be tested.

    And We indeed tested those who were before them. And Allah will certainly make (it) known (the truth of) those who are true, and will certainly make (it) known (the falsehood of) those who are liars, (although Allah knows all that before putting them to test)."
    (Surat Al-'Akabuut, vers 2-3)

    "And for those who believe (in the Oneness of Allah and other items of Faith) and do righteous good deeds, surely, We shall make them enter in (the enterance of) the righteous (i.e. in Paradise)."
    (Surat Al-'Ankabuut, vers 8)

    "Successful indeed are the believers."
    (Surat Al-Mu'minoon, vers 1)

    And your baby sister Asma was indeed a believer. So akhi do not be worried, Asma is in the highest level of Paradise inshaAllah and I pray that Allah reunites you and your family with her, ameen.


  • At Sunday, December 17, 2006 12:02:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Damn! I wrote a long ass reply and this stupid beta version said I need to sign in again, after I pressed the "publish" button.

    I'll try and post as much as I can remember, so here it goes bro:

    Anyone that says that they understand you, are liars, because none of us do, unless we've gone through the same situation.
    I get angry aswell, when I've been through a problem and somebody tries to simplify it, and say "I understand you", or something of the sort.

    The only thing I can relate to is that feeling of loneliness.
    I'm going through that too, and it could really have made a difference if someone just said "hello".
    You know what I mean?
    Just smiling at someone is sadaqah and I won't even get that from anyone, anymore.

    The people who deserted you, or hardly get in touch, aren't real friends.
    You can filter out the real friends, but seeing who stood by you at times of sorrow, rather than times of joy.
    And muslims especially, they shouldn't desert their muslim brothers and sisters in faith, because they're "busy" or whatever pathetic excuses they have.

    Missing your sister is ok, but you have no reason to feel sorry for her, because inshaAllah she is going to a much better place. And if she could see you now, she'll probably try to figure out why you're sad.

    This is our hell now, we're living in it.
    InshaAllah, if we've obeyed Allah, we'll all be united together because of the patience that we had, when the whole world turned against us overnight, and nothing seemed to go right anymore.
    Think about how beautiful jannah will be for your sister, a place where no one is fighting, and there isn't opression and suffering.

    Sometimes I think had I been dead before I would have been better off than growing up and becoming this person that I hate.
    However the battle isn't over yet, because today I woke up and I found myself alive and breathing.
    The devil is trying to make me give up on life, and if he can use my own brothers and sisters to put me down, then thats even better.

    The devil would prefer that we were depressed all the time.
    At the same time, there is a lot of anger which needs to be diffused somehow.
    I'm not really good at that either, its something I have to work on.
    Take care bro.

  • At Monday, December 18, 2006 1:36:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    its freaky Muslimfreedom its good to hear when ppl express similar thing to what i do cos then you know that you are not alone
    like when you say you hate it when ppl say they understand or they know what you mean, that ticks me off cos they dont and i dont say it too.

    about friends... so true

    and about being dead before becoming the person i have become it sucks have to work to change before its too late

    br omar jazakAllah khayr for this blog i love coming to it

    may Allah reunite you with Asma ameen

  • At Wednesday, December 20, 2006 7:44:00 PM, Blogger Nuralhuda said…

    I hope your pain is eased soon, iA.

  • At Thursday, December 21, 2006 2:16:00 AM, Anonymous mujahida3001 said…

    Assalaamualaikum Warahmutallahi Wabarakatuh,

    inshallah she is the highest place in janah.
    btw i havent heard from u in so long. i hope all is well inshallah. if did anythin to offnd u in anyway plz let me know inshallah and forgive me.

    jazakallah khair

  • At Thursday, December 21, 2006 2:20:00 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    awwww, she was so precious! How lucky she was, to have been adored as much as she was.

    Grief takes a long time, I'm sorry that you are suffering so.

    Best wishes to you and your family durig this hard time.

  • At Thursday, December 21, 2006 3:18:00 PM, Blogger faqir said…

    as-salamu 'alaikum

    may Allah ease your pain and give your sister the highest of station in His Jannah. Amin.


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